Plans

Proverbs 16:9 "In his heart a man plans his course, but the LORD determines his steps." I always have a plan (that shouldn't surprise anyone!!)! I have been planning the birth of our little boy for the last 9 months. I had some very concrete ideas about exactly how I thought things would go and today the plan changed big time. And I'm realizing the truth of what Proverbs 16:9 says...I can have all the plans I want, but God is going to determine my steps and he's in control of the birth of Baby Chatt - not me! Yesterday my ultrasound estimated that Baby Chatt is 10lbs 4oz! Holy cow- big baby boy!!! And that's an estimate that could be off by a pound. So that means he's between 9lbs 4oz and 11lbs 4oz. The upper end of that estimate scares me to pieces and the lower end of that estimate doesn't seem that great either. So Ryan and I met with my doctor today and reluctantly agreed to deliver by c-section. Based on my birth history with Christian (which is not good) and based on the size of this baby, a c-section seems like the safest route. Ryan and I talked about Christian's birth and we both agreed that knowing what we know now we would have absolutely chosen to have a c-section with him had we known how close we were going to come to loosing him. We never ever want to repeat Christian's birth. So here's the plan!!! I'm scheduled for a c-section bright and early on the morning of March 10th!! I don't think I'll actually make it to March 10th because I've been having about 1 or 2 contractions an hour for the last 24 hours and I can't imagine that I'm going to keep that up for another week. So I have a feeling we'll be having this boy sometime in the next 3 days (that's just a hunch). Even if I go into labor on my own, I will have a c-section. So pray for me. I'm a nervous wreck!! I wish they would just knock me out and wake me up when it's over....okay not really :)