Keep waiting....

Okay, okay....I know you're all waiting on the BIG NEWS! Or maybe it's just me on pins and needles, but I thought I should just let you know that I haven't even gone to the ultrasound yet. It's not scheduled until 3pm and it will take about an hour and then I'm going to run some errands before I'll be back on the computer. Sorry, but I don't have one of those fancy phones with the internet on it.

My word I've been anxious today. I'd like to think that I'm wise enough to know that God is in control and He is the one who ordains the paths of our lives. Yet I am also no longer the naive first time mom I was 6 years ago. I know that this ultrasound today has little to do with whether or not we're having a boy or a girl. So I've been keeping myself busy cleaning bathrooms. Like really cleaning, not my usual wipe it with a clorox wipe and swiffer the floor. No, I've been scrubbing for real :) and I found myself praying about nuchal folds, heart chambers and spinal cords. I know the Lord must love how specific I'm being just like when I used to pray that McKenna's eustachian tubes would form correctly so that she wouldn't have to deal with ear infections like Christian did. She ended up with tubes in her ears. Oh well. I know God hears. I know he knows my heart and there isn't a doubt in my mind that He knows just what will be perfect for our family.

Psalm 139:1-18
"Lord, you have searched me and you know me. You know when I sit and when I rise. You perceive my thoughts from afar. You discern my going out and my lying down. You are familiar with all my ways.

Before a word is on my tongue you know it completely, O Lord. You hem me in, behind and before. You have laid your hand upon me. Such knowledge is too wonderful for me, too lofty for me to attain.

Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence? If I go up to the heavens, you are there. If I make my bed in the depths, you are there. If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, even there Your hand will guide me. Your right hand will hold me fast. If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me and the light become night around me," even the darkness will not be dark to You. The night will shine like the day, for darkness is as light to You.

You created my inmost being. You knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise You because I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Your works are wonderful. O know that full well. My frame was not hidden from You when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, Your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in Your book before one of them came to be.

How precious to me are Your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them! Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand."