Tuesday, May 29, 2012


I've been struggling with Christian lately. He's just in a rough spot right now. We've been here before and somehow made it out on the other side, but I just really don't know what to do with him right now. His behavior has caught me off guard because we were doing so well for so long. He has so many great things going on in his life right now and he just chooses to be unhappy. It's tough for me to watch. Tough to know just how to guide him through this.

We're mainly dealing with respect/tone of voice/attitude/ don't give me that look....kinds of stuff. For the record...I don't ignore that kind of behavior.

Tonight for the first time ever Christian told me I was annoying. Alright....stop laughing. We all know I'm not annoying :)  You can just imagine how well I received that back talk from him. Thankfully I was super calm when I responded, but I am certain that the extended period of silence he had in his room did not change his heart. ((Sigh))

When I kiss his freckled little sleeping face at night I often find myself questioning whether or not I'm doing enough or responding right or giving him what he needs or .....   and I pray that God's grace will cover all my failures.  I fail continually in this role of mommy, but I am sure that my creator sits confidently on His throne and His grace far exceeds my failures.

Romans 1:15  "Through him and for his name's sake, we received grace..."

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

I feel your pain. My little guy has put me through it a time or two. May God give you grace and wisdom with Christian right now. (((hugs)))