Today was Christian's 7th day of school. I was priding myself on the fact that I haven't even cried about him going to Kindergarten. Christian's got a cough and stuffy nose, so I decided to let him sleep in an extra 40 minutes this morning and skip the bus. I thought he might be excited to have me drive him to school. In fact as I considered it this morning I actually worried that he might like me driving him to school so much that he would want me to do it everyday. I couldn't have been more wrong. He was ticked off! He was so mad that he missed the bus and I didn't discuss this with him first. Oh boy. I even told him that he could get an egg and cheese sandwich from McDonalds (his favorite) and he barely ate it.
As I walked him to the door of his school he took off without me and headed into the building and down the hall. A teacher standing at the door said "Good morning Christian" as he walked by. I watched the back of his blue backpack get lost in a crowd of other kids heading to their classes and I realized that for him the transition is over. He's there, he loves it, teachers even know his name. He knew where he was going and he didn't need a hand to hold. And that's exactly the way I want it!!! This is what I've worked hard to prepare him for, my heart is just a little sad.
Stupid clouds....I didn't have my sunglasses with me so all the other kids getting dropped off could clearly see a crying mom walking back to her car.
That is exactly how you want it. And although hard, probably also made your heart feel good to know that he is just fine and loving it! :)
ReplyDeleteEverything in life is a preparation for the next phase! I had to remind myself of that when we moved(not just dropped her off) Caitlin to Philly for grad school.
ReplyDeleteI know you are so proud of Christian and how he has adjusted so well to school. YOu and Ryan have done a tremendous job preparing him for this stage of life.
He is such an awesome kid!!!
Laurie
From a mom who is entering the youth group stage and in total denial about it, I understand. Being a mom is just hard. And sometimes a little sad. (((hugs)))
ReplyDeleteYou guys are also in my prayers regarding the discernment in parenting/school thing.
Anna